my new job is.. uhmm.. well i don't know yet.. i'm having an okay time so far because we are basically getting paid to do dry runs and TRY OUT THE FOOD before the restaurant opens but i really feel like i'm about to keel over and die from all this food...
that is something i never thought *i* would say. but they are making us order an appetizer and 2 entrees.. it's soooo much food.. and tomorrow there is more.. and the day after that too.. basically i am gonna be eating like this til next wed. when we finally open...
then hopefully i'll never want to eat again.
i have already mapped out whom in the crew i cannot stand and am not working with. i'm good at that. and i'm good at eating of course so so far it's pretty cool. i just think i'm really going to hate it once we havethe grand opening and are mobbed with hungry white families.
i'm officially out of the dark ages, supposedly, because i have a cell phone now.. but i am becoming one of those people i hate.. all i've been doing all day is looking at it, pressing buttons trying to figure out how to use it, and customizing.. but with much frustration..
it is a cingular phone and i am a tv addict so of course i've seen all the commercials about the REAL MUSIC ringtones.. so immediately i downloaded my favorite.. it was a tough match between christina aguilera "the voice within", justin timberlake, "rock your body", and william hung "she bangs", but i decided to go with hung because i must have THE MOST OBNOXIOUS ring as possible, since i now own one of the most obnoxious inventions ever created. besides that, i envisioned "rock your body" attracting too much bad dancing by passersby when my phone rings. no one in god's name could enjoy william hung "she bangs" and everyone will want to kill me, not dance, when my phone rings.. and i plan to let it ring and ring.. mwahahaha..
..that is, if i can ever figure out how to get my ringtone to work now. maybe this is god's way of annoying me for trying so hard to annoy others. if someone has a cingular phone and has downloaded a ringtone for it, please let me know.. maybe you can help me out.. i thought i did everything right but then when the company sent the ringtone it said "your downloads are now ready, press connect" or something, then i went to connect and it wouldn't, even though i was able to receive regular calls and had 3 bars of service, and even after i RETRIED 4 times. eventually i just ended it cuz i was sick of it not letting me connect and i thought i could save it for later when i was out and about and had more bars.. but now i don't know how to find that message.. i don't know if my phone ever really received my ringtone or if it's gone forever. i can't find it.. and i don't want to go outside or drive around to call customer service cuz it's late. (i don't get much service in my house cuz we live in the sticks..)
oh man, i'm officially insanely obsessed with my cell phone. no one can ever know about this.. but you all will soon find out,, oh wait, you have already because you read this. ok i need to die.
i've been working on a summer line of fluffy designs bags and i scored big because carl is helping me out this time around. i am sweing the bags and he is doing the screenprinted images on them. we are currently working on a line of canvas style icons totebags, featuring jackie o, twiggy, marilyn monroe, and audrey hepburn. $16 + s/h. they are really durable and just darling thanks to carl's adorable caricatures. i haven't done any other designs or sewing yet but i have lots of ideas in my mind. i'm thrilled to have carl, who is now officially a professional illustrator, by my side on this. :) the bags will be graced with our love.
leave it to me to be up all nite again and wasting time online. eh, it's been semi-productive. i have created my questionairre for my sociology final as well as my book i am working on about teenage girls and young women. i also remixed some more of carl's songs efficiently. and i designed postcards for my cousin's bridal shower because i am in charge of invitations. so yeah, i guess the whole evening has not been for nothing.
i am going to play an all girls' noise show in providence at the end of the month. i am really excited about it but nervous at the same time. i hope that the other girls are cool and maybe i will make some friends and stuff because... (drumroll please..)
i WILL be moving to providence this fall! yay! this is the best news i've had like.. all year. i've convinced my mom to it, and she said as long as i can afford it i can.. and as far as i know, we will be living in an aprtment that will cost me $150 a month rite in providence, so that's defnately feasible. more importantly, i will finally be back where i belong, next to where my heart is, with carl.
i love when weekends are so perfect that they just make you all giddy and silly acting. i can't recount all the awesome events because that will take away from the high i'm feeling from the actual experience. i just know that i had a really amazing time, and i can hold my happiness especially to myself like a little birdie. but i hate going back to "real life" tomorrow. the inevitable crash.
this was supposed to be a safe, encouraging place for me to come home to but now i question what i am really doing here. i feel like my mom is telling me to stay here longer just because she can't stand living by herself with my dad. she wants me to stay here and mediate. this is not healthy for me. every day they fight and i end up feeling worse and as though i won't be able to move on, more trapped than i've ever felt. it's like because i moved out when i was 19 and moved back in they have to treat me as though i never moved away andlived on my own now that i'm back. i am treated like i'm 16 all over again and i'm caught in between their marital problems when i love them both. that is stuff i didn't think i'd have to deal with as an adult and staying here is only going to make it worse and harder. i am an adult now and i am old enough to know what is in my best interest, and i know that this is not it. i hate to go against what my parents want me to do, but i know that i am miserable here and need to get out.
last nite christopher and i smoked a blunt of this ridiculous weed and went to a theatre to see a midnite movie of cheech & chong's up in smoke. now normally i don't like them, but iwas high enough so it was funny and i had a good time. then i got back and i was still high and didn't even have to smoke again. i really don't think there's any way i could enjoy those guys though without being under the influence of something, though.. it's SO stupid!! but then again i enjoy stupid humor, especially lately i'm into those guys who did the movie good burger. they're HA-larious!
chris gave me some "progs"! YES! nerd language! it's the stuff he uses to remix songs on his computer.. it's pretty fun but who knows now when i will leave the house. haha. i'm remixing my boyfriend's old album (under aluminumandroidsucker) cuz he dropped that project and i always loved it and i feel like if i put a twist on his old music maybe he will do it again. that was his best band if you ask me, but it makes him mad when i say that. he just got sick of it and gave up on it. he was all excited when i played my remix of one of his songs over the phone.. he likes it better than what he did. maybe it will inspire him to do it again cuz it was soooo fun seeing him play as androidsucker and the music was dancey and fun. noise is cool too but it only goes so far with me cuz i like listening to stuff and dancing. the first androidsucker song i remixed is like uhh, "dance damage" i guess you could say, so a little of what carl used to do and a little of what he's into now. i can't wait to do the rest of the cd. these "progs" (haha i love that, i don't know why) are so much fun, thanks chris!!!