this was supposed to be a safe, encouraging place for me to come home to but now i question what i am really doing here. i feel like my mom is telling me to stay here longer just because she can't stand living by herself with my dad. she wants me to stay here and mediate. this is not healthy for me. every day they fight and i end up feeling worse and as though i won't be able to move on, more trapped than i've ever felt. it's like because i moved out when i was 19 and moved back in they have to treat me as though i never moved away andlived on my own now that i'm back. i am treated like i'm 16 all over again and i'm caught in between their marital problems when i love them both. that is stuff i didn't think i'd have to deal with as an adult and staying here is only going to make it worse and harder. i am an adult now and i am old enough to know what is in my best interest, and i know that this is not it. i hate to go against what my parents want me to do, but i know that i am miserable here and need to get out.
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